傷人最深的不是愛情,是回憶

~10 April 2009~



曾經以為自己是個很堅強的人,即使失去愛情,也可以活出自己的精彩,其實不是,我不明白為什麽人總要在經歷一些事情之後才能多了解自己一點,如果一切都可以避免,就不會這麽傷心了……

我丟掉了我的愛情……

曾經以為自己是世界上最幸福的人,即使失去一切,我還有愛情,其實不是,直到有一天他和我說他不愛我的時候我就知道一切都是自己在騙自己,以為自己真的找到了懂得愛自己的人,誰知那個人卻不是他……

我丟掉了我的心……

曾經以為自己沒心沒肺,即使受過傷害,也會很快忘記做回快樂的自己,其實不是,到處都是他留下的記憶,越想忘記,反而會記得越深,每一次想起都會讓自己很痛很痛……

我丟掉了我的快樂……

曾經聽說過做一個女人的最高境界是可以分配自己的感情,40%的愛情,50%的親情,10%的其它感情,所以聰明的女人即使失去了愛情,也不會是一無所有。但我現在是真的一無所有……

我丟掉了我自己……

曾經以為傷我們最深的是愛情,其實不是,時間可以治療愛情留下的痛,卻帶不走深刻在腦海裏的記憶。沒有了愛情,卻仍然記得你第一次說愛我,第一次牽我的手,第一次吻我,第一次叫我親愛的,第一次叫我寶貝兒,第一次叫我老婆大人……所帶給我滿心的感動與幸福……

我丟不掉回憶……

曾經以為自己很富有,其實不是,我丟掉了愛情,丟掉了心,丟掉了快樂,丟掉了自己,唯一丟不掉的只有回憶……

原來有許多原來我不懂……


i like this essay very much...because it is meaningful...

First Experience

~4 April 2009~



Today very very early morning about 1.00am....
my fren ask me go help jejawi "pek yao"...they wan fight kangar...
so i just follow them go lor....
but they keep finding ppl,they find malay too,when all rdy to go,already 2.00am....
when we arrive kangar...
we go meet jejawi gang at malay's shop....
when we go the place they date to fight....
after we arrive,they go inside a path to the playground...
there is only the path can go into the playground...about 50m the path...
then we just waiting outside lor....
manatau...i saw whole kampung malays(not ours gang)rush from under brige to the ppl at the car...
walao...that moment really like movie lor~
those malays are taking long knife and iron pipe....so scary....
they stand around the car(we see from far distance)then we hear the ppl in the car shout "BUKAN BUKAN"....
LOL~~~hahaha....
then those malays rush to us =.="
make me scare nia...hocai those malays also are kp ppl...
abo maybe i at hospital now....
fight lin?jejawi fight kangar become kp fight kp?
kangar ppl say to jejawi ppl dun play malay and dun play weapon...
but themselves play wor =.="
hocai finally police come....and all ppl run...
so excited~~XD
about 5am me just arrive home...



bye...
wana go tuition d =]

scary day @@

~1 April 2009~



today was a scary day....
the scary virus,conficker was attacking alot of computer and website....
hope i wont get attack from the virus =[

at school...
our chinese teacher was mad today...
she "Z" the door and the door fall down = ="
what a scary super leg...

thats all for today...
gudnite =]

WANTED

~31 March 2009~




lol...i found this paper in the chinese room today...
haha...





























this sohai fatty is wearing girl's jacket =.=ll





















ytd nite me n my 2 fren go out and we saw a big snake...
and today the toto open 2nd price 3606...
3->3 ppl
606->snake
why we din write the number TT

thats all for today...
goodnite =]